In October my project “Create yourself anew” had its two-year anniversary. It’s hard to believe that it’s been two years already, but at the same time hard to believe it has only been two years. Two long years that have gone by in a flash. It’s bizarre: it seems surreal and at the same time completely normal. Ask as many questions as you like about the details of this process, I don’t know if I could ever explain how it is simultaneously incredibly, excruciatingly difficult, and magically simple.
“And so whenever a new potential boyfriend appears on the horizon, I get a sense of dread and can feel myself hardening: what if I lose myself again? What will become of my life if I end up with a husband and kids?” Readers’ questions
“So are you facing many problems at the moment? Or is everything going smoothly?”
I was meeting up with a friend who had visited Bali with me two years previously. We were in a café in Moscow and discussing life, sat opposite some contemporary artwork entitled “Never-ending struggle”, worth no less than 216,000 Russian roubles, which is about $3,300.
Responding to readers’ questions.
I’m 30. I don’t have a boyfriend and I’ve never had a long-term relationship. What should I do?
I was never drawn to Paris. Not even a little bit. There was a time when my soul yearned only for the dazzling white sand of tropical beaches (so elusive!), or the well-trodden Himalayas or Alps, or even the glass skyscrapers of contemporary Asian megalopolises. But never Paris.
And breathe! I did it. Fourteen days of writing an article a day, with only one day off on Sunday. The result is twelve written pieces; a task I’d set myself with a deadline of three months, but completed in just two weeks. This piece is the last one in the series. But how to keep it going every day? And have I succeeded in my mental detox through this intensive and mindful approach? Time for a review.